Another OB visit....

Good arvo!!
I'm at home today cause I had more gushing of fluid loss so I rang the clinic and my OB said to come straight down. Had a heap of tests, including one that took a sample of the fluid again that I'm leaking and (the test actually looked like an OPK dip stick thingy!) it checks to see if it's amniotic fluid or other fluid I'm leaking. Anyway, the good news is that it's not amniotic fluid but it is coming from me, and not the baby. I had a scan and my cervix is still about 3.5 - 3.6 cm long and it's closed nicely still.
Also, bub was flipping around and going well completely unaware of what was going on in the outside world! What a relief, I can't explain it! Plus it's been quiet the last couple of days and I hadn't felt it so that just added to my anxiety levels!
They did blood tests and swabs to check for infection of any illnesses but the swabs the last few times have been completely clear of anything so he doesn't think there's any kind of infection. The abruption of my placenta hasn't gotten any worse and that' what he was most concerned about so probably all in all, that was the most relief I've had in a week! Again he said that it was likely I would continue to 'leak' for the duration of my pregnancy and whilst he didn't tell me not to worry - cause he can't guarantee that there isn't reason to - he told me what to look out for so that I can sleep at night!!! I look like a hundred year old hag from laying awake worrying!!
My goodness..... what a worrysome time!!! Nearly 19 weeks so about 5 weeks to go until the safe zone! Cmon goddamnit!!! I want to breathe again!!! lol!!!
How many china men did I run over in a past life for all this worry?!?!?!

I wanted to add...... last night I laid in bed and cried and cried and I mean HOWLED like a baby until about 11:30pm! Poor DP didn't know what to do and I tried to explain to him that I was just feeling like I'd done something wrong in a past life and I was over tired and feeling upset and helpless!!! He was wonderful and just cuddled me until I eventually cried myself to sleep. I always do my best to stay upbeat and positive, but some days it really does seem like the world is against me having a baby!! I'm better today after I let it all out, and I feel positive that I can do this. I can last another 5 weeks. I will give my life for this baby, I love it so much.
A massive thanks to all those who have thought of me and bubs in their messages and blogs. It really does mean the world to me. You gals are all awesome! xxx