Third Trimester..... wow!

Well, it's been a long week and a bit and today is technically now my "friday" when it comes to work and that's such a relief! I really do love my job but by the end of the day I've had it!! Just knackered!!
But I'm very relieved and grateful that I have now moved into the third trimester!! How exciting!!!
Thought I'd take stock of changes occuring in myself so when I look back I'll remember things a little more clearly.....

Starting to feel "tight" in my stomach now. My belly button hasn't popped out but I am noticing it's alot flatter than normal! It's not normally very deep anyway. I really don't love "outties" but guess you can't put off the inevitable! Plus everyone says they go back in after bub is born!! lol!

Am now contemplating going up again in bra sizes. Who would've thought?! I started a small B cup and about 17 weeks I went up to a C cup and now I'm thinking about increasing again but will try and wait a couple of weeks and see how things are then. Otherwise I'm going to end up with a whole range of different sizes and probably not wear half of them again!!!!

Bub has been moving HEAPS which is great cause there's nothing more reassuring than feeling that movement. It's a bit quiet this morning and that's unusual given how active it is normally, but I'm sure it's jsut settling into normal sleeping patterns (or so the books say they do about this time).

No stretch marks yet thankfully and am continuing the twice daily ritual of practically bathing myself in as much moisturiser as possible AS WELL AS bio oil on top, and I'm bascially a walking oil slick around my torso, but I'm hoping it does SOME good!!

Not feeling like much tea at night time still. I find I fill up quickly when eating so eat my bigger meals during the day and then only have something light at night so I'm not so uncomfortable at night when I go to bed. I find it helps me sleep better and seem to be less likely to have to get up to go to the loo! I think this week alone I've slept right through 4 nights without loo stops! It's bliss!!

I think that's about it really. Have my first antenatal class next Thursday night which will be great! DP and I are on annual leave from tomorrow, heading over to our rental house to spend two weeks painting it so it's not REALLY a holiday as such but if we can get it done, I'll be so relieved to be able to tick that off the list! So we''ll have to drive back from the house on Wednesday night (3 hours drive) and DP will work on Thursday, then we'll go to the class Thursday night and then we'll drive back to the house on Friday arvo (another 3 hours drive) and stay for the following week. Then when I get back I've only got 24 work days left..... Can hardly believe it when I think about it!

On a positive note just wanted to say a massive congrats to Nani who had a wonderful scan yesterday and got to see bub and a heartbeat and I'm sooooo thrilled for her!!! Stay sticky little one!!
Also, hanging out to have the same wonderful news for GS shortly...... not long now!!! : D
Am hoping Rolz has some good news about BD'ing around O time and hope those awful O pains have subsided and you're feeling better?!?!
And Em, haven't heard from you for a while but am praying your follies are behaving and your injections work and this cycle brings you the luck youso deserve!!!
Summa, I hope you have a wonderful time away in Fiji and you and DP can add positivefuel to the debate over babie's just "happening" when you're relaxed and not thinking about it!!!!
Of course big hugs to all the UTD girls in the gang! Everyone looks so well in their pics and updates and I can't believe how quickly time is flying!
Well, that's it for today and may be a bit MIA whilst we're away painting but will continue to monitor blogs etc when I can!!! Keep well and see you all soon!

: D

Bit Better....

Sooooooo..... have had a better day today, and it all started yesterday arvo. Thank the lord!! DP and I had a really good chat about things yesterday and we both realised how much pressure we're under and how things have taken a toll in our relationship as a consequence.
He runs his own business and is ridiculously busy, his phone never stops and he's on call pretty much 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. Plus I work full time (well 4 days a week now as of last week), plus we've not long finished renovating our house, plus we've obviously got this baby coming, plus we just bought a new car, plus we've got to get our new rental place ready for holiday rental by about the end of October and it needs painting (it's 5 bedrooms and 2 bathrooms) and some other bits and pieces done, plus we had to get a whole house full of furniture over there, plus run the house we live in on a day to day basis, plus I've had the flu and just only in the last few weeks come out of the "danger zone" for this pregnancy...... I really think everything just got too much for us and we were taking it out on each other... I know there are people out there with situations waaaaaaaayyyyyyyy harder than ours, but when it's your own situation, that's all you can really personally know. Anyway, in a nutshell we have sorted our shit out, paid off all our debt except the rental property, and are feeling a little better for talking about how we were both feeling.
Plus my flu is going and I'm feeling a little more well equipped for coping!!! And I STILL maintain these bloody hormones made me worse!!! lol!

Anyway, gotta run to yet ANOTHER meeting! Hope all is well and will post again later to give my thanks to some buddies who always cheer me up! : )

ANOTHER bad night.....

So, DP had another ripper night last night. The fighting continued and I spent most of last night awake and crying to myself. Then up again this morning and sat on the floor of the shower for about 20 minutes sobbing again. SURELY pregnancy hormones are contributing to this extreme emotion I'm experiencing?? It's doing my head in..... I'm usre being sick doesn't help either. Anyway, DP came into the shower with me and sat on the floor with me, with his arms around me and just held me and kept saying everything would be ok and although I still felt shit, I somehow just knew it would.
Thanks for the messages of support from my friends. I've never been so emotional as what I have been in the past few days and I'm hoping the worst has past.....

Bad night

Having a shit night. Arguing with DP about a long standing issue between us and I don't have anyone to talk to about it and he won't talk to me about it so I'm sitting here at the kitchen table in tears and can't seem to stop. I'm sick with the flu and I'm over tired from lack of sleep (thanks to the flu) so I can't wait for tonight to be over so I can go to bed and tomorrow is another day. Thanks soooo much to my SWB girls - I have dumped on our homepage and no one can fix this but DP and I, but to be able to unload and get it off my chest is a massive help. Promise the next post will be more intereting, uplifiting, inspiring, etc etc.

Six and a half months!

Well, I'm six and a half months tomorrow actually but I'm in a workshop all day so I'll write about it today!!!
I feel on top of the world now, this is all uncharted territory for me, but I feel stronger and more determined than ever! I guess it helps when you're not constantly weighed down with worry.....

Had my fortnightly OB appointment today. Saw the "head" OB today (who actually owns the clinic), Dr B and he was jsut fantastic. A very thorough, pleasant and caring doctor who seemed to know my full history (he'd done his pre-reading) and was happy to answer questions, provide options and generally was an all round nice guy.
There was a student doc in with him which he was teaching as he did my various observations, which I like cause you seem to get more detail when they are explaining it to someone else. BP was low again and he is sending me for another renal function test due to elevated corisol again, but he didn't seem overly concerned, just checking.
He then did a scan and I got to see bub again - who by the way, now fully looks like a real little chubby cheeked baby! He was even pointing out facial features like the nose and cute little lips! God, I sound like such a soppy mum, but I can't begin to tell you how amazed I am every time I see it. I know I am competely biased but seriously, it looks like a pretty darn cute little thing! I was head down this time instead of its usual breech position, but I could have told Dr B that before the scan as the past 24 hours I have felt bub more than ever! Yesterday at work I had my left hand pressing on top of the fundus and I SWEAR i felt a heel roll across the inside of my fingers!!! It actually felt weird from the outside, so much I pulled away in a bit of shock!! I love it though and wish I could feel that all the time!!
Some tentatively good news....it appears that my placenta has shifted slightly so that now it is only partially covering the cervix and Dr B seemed to think it would well and truly move (although can't guarantee it of course) out of the way by the time of the birth and hopefully eliminating the need for a c section! Fingers crossed!!!! That would be just an extra blessing!!!

I am booked in next Tuesday for the glucose challenge test (as it's called ony my Gribbles slip - I thought it was the glucose tolerance test) which I'm not sure if I'm looking forward to that! But it has to be done and I'm happy to go along and do it. Booked it for next week though as I've just had a bout of gastro and I currently have a sore throat and the onset of a cold! Boy, it's all hit me at once!!! So will also have a full blood count and he will be checking for cortisol levels again. Dr B has also told me to cut my work back to 4 days a week which I was a bit hesitant about - mostly because I have SOOOO much to do before I finish up, but also glad about because I'm pretty knackered by the end of the week! I'm happy to do whatever he tells me, so as of this week, I'll now have Fridays off! Yay! So, taking out my annual leave, I only have 32 actual work days left! I CANNOT BELIEVE IT!!!!

Anyway, I'm off to read the other blogs seseing as I've been sick and haven't been online. Hope everyone is well and look forward to catching up on more shortly!

: D

25w!! Yay!

Well, just a quick post.... mostly to mark the day! I am 25w today and BOY does it feel good?!?! Bub has been kicking madly alot of the day, although I do notice there are blocks of time where there are no movements at all so I can only assume bub is asleep! It gives me some real whacks now and I can see it a fair bit from the outside which is still one ofthe freakiest experiences ever! Good freaky of course, but weird all the same!!!
My appetite has increased a fair bit in the past week or so and I'm certain I'm having a growth spurt as I've been having a heap of stretching pains these past few days.

Yay for GS for doubling her HCG levels in her BT. Soooo happy for her! Yay for Nani too who is feeling M/S and having food aversions! Fingers crossed for Bubba.... still waiting to hear the outcome of this TWW! Cmon...... please another BFP!!!! And of course to Rolz who is still early days into this cycle but hopefully good things will come! We're on a roll here ladies! Big hugs too to Summa who is also in the TWW but is having a bit of a rough trot. Still thinking of you every day......

Well, best get back to work! Bub just kicked my right side pretty hard so it obviously think I should get back to work too!! lol!

Good news brings more good news!!!!!!

Wow, GS is pregnant! What more can I say??!! Just fantastic news!!!! So this month that makes Nani AND Gs....... good news never stops there....... who will be next?!?!?! Am sooooo happy for you girls!
Time for more good news from SWB me thinks!!!!
: D

24w4d...... did someone say VIABILITY???

I did it! WE did it!!! Bubba has stuck and stayed with me to the point the OB's call viability..... so worst case scenario if bubba now comes early, it stands a good fighting chance!!!! For me it really feels nothing short of a miracle!!!! And I guess while I'm talking about that, I'd really love to sincerely thank from the bottom of my heart ALL my SWB friends who have helped me and comforted me and supported me through this whole experience. You guys kept me sane, you kept me smiling, you kept me positive and for that I am eternally grateful!!! Thanks again girls xxxxxxxx

Oh and the pic I have attached is from 23w6d last Wednesday but seriously think I have doubled between then and now! Might even take a pic this week and show the difference!!! It's been almost overnight!!!


On a slightly more sad but perhaps bitter sweet not, my good friend here at work J who I mentioned a couple of posts back, lost 2 of her quads last week. I say bittersweet as the other two little ones are still safe and sound and tucked nicely away so all is not lost. I wish her every bit of luck and happiness I can muster in the weeks and months to come. Always thinking of you J xxx

Was just reading Nani's blog and soooooooo happy that gorgeous little bubby of hers is doing great and Nani is feeling better! Except for constipation and allergies, you poor thing!!! I got the dreaded pregnancy constipation about 6 weeks and let me give you one piece of advice Nani....... Sultana Bran!!! I have it religiously EVERY morning with skim milk and it saved me big time!!!!! I also found some good snack bars in the supermarket that are high in fibre that have helped too and most days at work I eat a Packham pear (if you like eating pears that is...) and so that problem is now under control!!! lol! But Nani, all my fingers and toes etc are all crossed for you and I am praying every day that all will be ok!! I'm sure it will but just wanted you to know I was thinking of you! : )

Also, YAY to the girls in SWB who are approaching their third trimesters...... how QUICK has that gone?!?!?!?! Blows me away just thinking about it!!!!

For the girls in SWB who are yet to get that elusive BFP, you kow we're all still holding our breath, crossing our fingers and fighting the fight with you!!!! Not far now, I'm sure!!!! Bugger to Rolz for AF showing up last week but let's hope this cycle is a little kinder to you. Also to Bubba, this is such an exciting TWW and I PRAY that this one brings great news all round!!!!

Well, better get back to work but hope everyone is well and catch you again soon!

: D

23w4d

Well, today is the day in the twin pregnancy that I went into labour. Can't believe it was at this point in my pregnancy that everything turned so pear shaped. Whilst I'm still afraid of jinxing myself (am sure it won't happen though!!) I will say, that this pregnancy now seems a whole different experience. Can't even really describe the differences, maybe it's just that I'm older and been through more..... but things just now feel......right. Maybe I'm just letting myself finally believe that this is happening? A part of me feels like I am letting my guard down when I type this and that makes me feel vulnerable for some reason, but at the same time absolutely elated. Someone pinch me.....

On a sad note, DP's cousin passed away yesterday. He was only 38 and he had a massive heart attack whilst riding a horse on Saturday arvo. He was at a comp in Werribee and they took him to Footscray hospital where he was operated on quite late on Saturday night and ballooned his arteries etc but they declared him dead yesterday morning. Apparently at the time of the heart attack he had a very long period of time where he wasn't breathing and no oxygen got to his brain and there was no sign at all of brain activity when they tested about 5am yesterday. He was an organ donor and they "harvested" (such an awful term) his organs for donation mid yesterday morning. DP is quite shocked, as is the rest of the family. He was quite a fit guy, playing football and wasn't a smoker or anything like that. Enjoyed a social drink but no more than the next bloke. Dp and his cousin were the only two boys in his family and now DP feels a little lost I think without him. I'm not one to panic or anything but I have made DP he will go soon and have his heart checked. DP'd dad and uncle have both had heart attacks, and DP's grandfather had 2 - the second one ended his life, and his grandfathers' 3 brothers also died from heart attacks (2 of them in their 30's) which I only just found most of this out on Saturday night. I'm sure DP will be fine, but I'd rather get him checked over just to give me piece of mind. It's clearly hereditary! Let' just hope he has his Mum's heart! DP is now the only male on his dad's side of the family that hasn't had a heart attack and I'd like to keep it that way!!!

DP felt bub going off it's nut last night in my tummy. I climbed into bed and told DP to put his hand on my tummy and just as he did it was kicking and rolling about like mad (must have been getting comfy for bed!!) and he felt it heaps. He couldn't believe how much it moved as that's the most he's felt it, and he asked how anyone could possibly sleep with that going on inside them!! It's not THAT bad justyet, but everyone says when you get to later in the pregnancy it can be ahrd getting to sleep when bub is playing jungle gym inside you!!

Bought some cute baby clothes over the weekend. It's very hard though, being the only person who knows what I'm having. Still haven't told DP that I accidentally was told by the OB what we're having but it's actually not been so hard keeping it to myself. The thing I find funny is when people keep telling me what they think I'm having. My future mother in law is adamant that she knows what I'm having and she's actually wrong so I get a little giggle to myself when she goes on about it!! But it's meant I can buy a few little special things that I have found that are specific to the sex of the bub.... I just have to hide them RIGHT at the very top of the built in robe cause no one would ever look up there! On the weekend I bought some little one piece outfits from Paul Frank which are so cute but a little bit cool, and also some bits and pieces of Ralph Lauren (which are just for special occasions!) including a little pair of pre-walker shoes and they are soooo adorable. I think I'm getting used to this being relaxed and enjoying it thing...... : D