21st week....c'mon already!!

Well, even the most optimistic people have bad days..... yesterday was one for me. Had another little meltdown when I got into bed last night. I think I was overtired and probably hormones have alot to answer for, but spent another hour blubbering and to the point where DP could hardly even understand the words coming out of my mouth! The poor guy..... he really didn't know what to do or say. But to be honest, I think that my brain is collapsing from spending EVERY SINGLE DAY worrying about every little thing my body is doing and for the welfare of the bub. These last few weeks are going sooooooooo slow. And I'm not complaining, not at all but I just would love to enjoy this pregnancy like mum's to be are supposed to. Not spend 5 months flat out worrying about if your baby will even live. It's much more than one little human brain and set of emotions can handle. But I WILL persevere, I know it's not so long to go. I just feel like I need a little time out - just a few days of stress free thoughts and pretty much thinking happy thoughts and I'll be back on track. I know that I will be able to do that and do that convincingly after the 24 week mark. God, I've never hung out for a milestone so much in my life..... not for anything!